today was really hard.
once again proof that nothing good should ever happen to me.
the next day or so, everything goes wheels-off.
sorry. just a rough day.
need to get working on the big list i created last night. things to go, places to see, people to do.
maybe once i can get that moving in something resembling a forward direction i'll be able to feel decent about some things. good may be a bit further off. who knows.
short and sweet tonight.
i'm out.
12 March 2008
11 March 2008
sorry, time got away from me again.
opera seems to do that.
it also seems to get me down.
i took the bus to the show tonight. didn't want to park.
decided to walk home after.
about a mile and a half. takes anywhere from .5 hour to 1.5 hour.
depends on what i see, how i feel, etc etc.
i hurt. my feet hurt. my back hurts. my knees hurt.
everything hurts.
i haven't done this in a long time. very out of practice.
best damn thing i have done in a long time. i need to start doing more of it again.
i have been spending a lot of time contemplating my reality.
i am not pleased.
in the spirit of my new outlook on the universe, i must change.
i have several options.
i will be exploring them.
i can no longer wait.
i must create my own life.
passive is the path to mediocrity.
active is the path to failure.
without failure, there can be no success.
time to fail.
i'm out.
opera seems to do that.
it also seems to get me down.
i took the bus to the show tonight. didn't want to park.
decided to walk home after.
about a mile and a half. takes anywhere from .5 hour to 1.5 hour.
depends on what i see, how i feel, etc etc.
i hurt. my feet hurt. my back hurts. my knees hurt.
everything hurts.
i haven't done this in a long time. very out of practice.
best damn thing i have done in a long time. i need to start doing more of it again.
i have been spending a lot of time contemplating my reality.
i am not pleased.
in the spirit of my new outlook on the universe, i must change.
i have several options.
i will be exploring them.
i can no longer wait.
i must create my own life.
passive is the path to mediocrity.
active is the path to failure.
without failure, there can be no success.
time to fail.
i'm out.
03 March 2008
sacre merde!
she spoke to me again.
apparently she is really busy. i am very much hoping she really is. but she seems genuinely interested so...
still unsure of the future. need some time off to try and put everything in perspective.
school? career? new career?
bullet?
today was supposed to be a day off, but i spent the whole day working on projects. not my own. other people's projects.
getting old.
also, i need to start looking for a new car. mine is broken. i'll upload a picture as soon as i actually remember to attach my camera to my computer. i have several of those i need to add.
maybe next week.
i had it in mind tonight to do a new little rant i've been thinking about. but i think i will save it.
i know, short; at least its not sweet.
i'm out.
she spoke to me again.
apparently she is really busy. i am very much hoping she really is. but she seems genuinely interested so...
still unsure of the future. need some time off to try and put everything in perspective.
school? career? new career?
bullet?
today was supposed to be a day off, but i spent the whole day working on projects. not my own. other people's projects.
getting old.
also, i need to start looking for a new car. mine is broken. i'll upload a picture as soon as i actually remember to attach my camera to my computer. i have several of those i need to add.
maybe next week.
i had it in mind tonight to do a new little rant i've been thinking about. but i think i will save it.
i know, short; at least its not sweet.
i'm out.
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