still

i wrote this whole entry, but it ended up sounding a bit too whiny. so i deleted it and started over.

i do want it all to end.

i could use a vacation. a break. a pause?

something.

but i think it will not happen tonight.

so i will look for stillness.

ease the troubled mind.

calm the emotional turmoil.

surrender the pain.

the still mind.

...

...

well that didn't work.

what's next.

out.