the last few weeks have been completely insane.

technology failures, general unhappiness, people really pissed at me, more technology failures, working really hard, very very busy, even more technology failure, medical drama and a complete desire to just die and be done with it such as i have not had in quite some time.

so the program i administer seems to be diving headlong into the abyss. i try to pull it up but there is only so much one person can do, especially when the support structure wont. i push and pull, fight and cry, but nothing seems to work.
i don't know how much more of this i can deal with.

my personal cyberpunk issue (the failure of technology to fulfil its promise) began when at&t took cingular back over. i have had nothing but problems with my cell phone since. calls not ringing through, my calls not getting out, voice mails appearing two weeks later, etc. and now the damn thing seems to be having physical problems as well. i need to take it in for repair, but if it is going to cost too much i will have to get a new one. not happy about that. new phone is in the plan for next year, not this one. this could be a problem.

now as i am trying to sort all of that out, my internet keeps going out at home. finally after much gnashing of teeth and rending of clothes i figure out it is the phone modem for my voip phone. when i first got into voip, the modem thet used was inline, and came before the router. so everytime it started to go down, i would lose my internet as well as my phone. but now i have replaced it with an after router version. so far it seems to be working much better.

i am going to leave the bitching, moaning and whining at that for today. or at least for this post. more to come, i am sure.