I feel my life is dead end. I have no consistent income or work options with no benefits. I have had some very fun shows lately but they are few, far between and not the highest income bracket I've ever played in. But there is no where to go. Too few shows in this town for too few companies and too many designers. I don't really even know what I want anymore. Stay in the business or move on.
The feelings of loss, lost and abject fear drive me to a position of total inactivity.
So I do nothing.
Again.
Still.

Out.